October's retrospect...

What a pity. I only wrote one entry for September. Why? Because my computer was down. It's already the 1st of October...

We're now in the last quarter of the year. Everytime we arrive in October, I look back in awe at how fast the past 9 months have gone by. And I sigh...

All these memories that we've gathered, they're priceless. Let's not segregate them into good and bad. Let's just see them as... memories. They are the ones we have to face on our deathbed. Did you live a fulfilling life? Do you regret anything? Was it worth going through what you've gone through? Are you satisfied?

Powerful stuff, memories. Even now I look back and question why I had to go through what I've been through. They're all lessons, of course. Sometimes I wonder whether I've learned the lessons behind my experiences. It's so hard to grasp the lesson sometimes. But when you eventually get it, you'll realise that the lesson was right in front of you all along. You were just too blind to see it.

Or better yet, right now I can see the lesson behind what I'm experiencing, but I'm just too stubborn to accept it. What a feeling, really. Somebody knock me into my senses...

I wonder how October will fare. Should I be optimistic or pessimistic?